The First To Walk Away

12:15 AM

Even if you leave me, I will never let go
Because the uncertainty of finding another you has got me too exposed

I blame myself for losing my self grasp
Crossing the path where hurt left me last
Thought you were the exception, but my past made me react
Slowly walking away from you trying to bring you back

Is this the situation your friends coached you through just so they could see you crash
Were we on to something or are you stuck on your last, troubled by your past?

Trepidation has got us shifting positions
Arguing our anonymity in this perplexity of perspectives
This battle between us has got me feeling conflicted
We both feeling the same while having the same difference

Obscure and overwhelming, I wish that this could wait
Seize this very moment of a memory growing faint
Chancing the risk, the one we failed to take
But escaping this reality is a dream wide awake

Tell me this is right
Are you in my social script, the climax of my life


10:00 PM

I'm a 23 year old looking to explore
All of life's treasures that even money can't reward
Steady searching for feeling, love I'm never sure
Women stick around for the potential that I can secure
Keeping pace with a lifestyle that I can't afford

Browse the menu where the prices they don't display
Pick your favorite wine, drink it all I don't have to taste
Regretting the fact that I brought you to my place
To a city skyline, my daily great escape
And the reason you come back is for the pictures you failed to take

Are we on to something or is your interest really fake?
Because you neglect to ask the right questions except for our future dates


Thought that chapter was over
Felt my feelings could move forward
And now you're haunting every girl that I happen to look over

Different name, different picture in the frame
Yet the memories, never fading, forever they remain

Stop the clock, pause this moment for a minute
And allow me to engage you in conversation of my transition
Believe me, I'm trying to get better
But how do you undo something that's never been together?